Saturday, September 18, 2010

Honestly..Why am I bored?

I've been posting for quite sometime that I'm rather bored. I may be busy checking mails, surfing the net,watching anime and tv series,reading books,blogs and fanfic...still am bored. I've been wondering myself why I am bored. I shouldn't be. I mean I go to work, I am currently answering my module (liar,liar,pants on fire!hehehehe!), I watch tv...It's not like am not doing anything but...
Yeah, but...I feel that what I am doing is not enough. I mean am on the net but I jump from one site to another. I read a book at the same time is watching a tv series. I chat with my friends at the same time watching an anime online. I go to work, yet looking forward to going home. I listen to music but is actually playing a game, eating and/or reading a book. Am not really a multitasking person yet I do all these stuff at once.
I also seem to have loads of cravings, and kinda specific, too. I wanna eat pizza and carbonara (at Pizza Hut), burger,fries,sundae and float (at McDo),hotdog and palabok (at Jollibee)lasagna (at Greenwich). Pringles, Cheetos, Chippy, Mr Chips, Cheese Curls, Goldilocks polvoron, PikNik. I mean everybody knows I love chips (junkfoods) and that I prefer eating at McDo but to actually have these cravings one after another!Really,really weird...and am not like this that if the craving is not satisfied I don't let up. But then I'm also not like this that once I've eaten what I craved for, am not gonna eat it again for quite sometime. Really,really weird (this is with my head shaking..)
At first I don't know why...all I can think about is am bored. Like I am looking for something new. or maybe an adrenaline rush, hehehehe! Something, anything to get me out of this feeling of doing nothing.
Now, just really recently, I realized that am actually bored. Bored in the sense that my mind is not that strongly stimulated. Life has become a routine. It has become too slow for me. I mean that the pace here in Butuan has become a bit dull for me. I don't mean it in a bad way,it's just it's being slow for me. My mother has been telling me to do something to keep myself from falling into a rut... and now here I am... in a rut.
Hahay! Maybe I feel this way cause there are times that I feel like am falling behind everybody. I feel like I haven't done anything significant yet. I feel like I have nothing to show for all the years I have worked. So I guess, my boredom also stemmed from feeling dissatisfied. And spiritually speaking...I need to go back to Lingkod,hahay!
I need to take action, take back my zeal for life...hehehehe!

3 comments:

jangy said...

i can relate
at work all i wanna do i go home
when im home all i do is do some online stuff then sleep
it's boring
even FB bores me
LOL
we need a boyfriend! hahahah j/k
but yeah, something to challenge us

Anna said...

hahahaha! I don't think a boyfriend is a solution...just something to spark our interest...lol

thinkerthird said...

You need Toastmasters and you'll meet a boyfriend.