I've been posting for quite sometime that I'm rather bored. I may be busy checking mails, surfing the net,watching anime and tv series,reading books,blogs and fanfic...still am bored. I've been wondering myself why I am bored. I shouldn't be. I mean I go to work, I am currently answering my module (liar,liar,pants on fire!hehehehe!), I watch tv...It's not like am not doing anything but...
Yeah, but...I feel that what I am doing is not enough. I mean am on the net but I jump from one site to another. I read a book at the same time is watching a tv series. I chat with my friends at the same time watching an anime online. I go to work, yet looking forward to going home. I listen to music but is actually playing a game, eating and/or reading a book. Am not really a multitasking person yet I do all these stuff at once.
I also seem to have loads of cravings, and kinda specific, too. I wanna eat pizza and carbonara (at Pizza Hut), burger,fries,sundae and float (at McDo),hotdog and palabok (at Jollibee)lasagna (at Greenwich). Pringles, Cheetos, Chippy, Mr Chips, Cheese Curls, Goldilocks polvoron, PikNik. I mean everybody knows I love chips (junkfoods) and that I prefer eating at McDo but to actually have these cravings one after another!Really,really weird...and am not like this that if the craving is not satisfied I don't let up. But then I'm also not like this that once I've eaten what I craved for, am not gonna eat it again for quite sometime. Really,really weird (this is with my head shaking..)
At first I don't know why...all I can think about is am bored. Like I am looking for something new. or maybe an adrenaline rush, hehehehe! Something, anything to get me out of this feeling of doing nothing.
Now, just really recently, I realized that am actually bored. Bored in the sense that my mind is not that strongly stimulated. Life has become a routine. It has become too slow for me. I mean that the pace here in Butuan has become a bit dull for me. I don't mean it in a bad way,it's just it's being slow for me. My mother has been telling me to do something to keep myself from falling into a rut... and now here I am... in a rut.
Hahay! Maybe I feel this way cause there are times that I feel like am falling behind everybody. I feel like I haven't done anything significant yet. I feel like I have nothing to show for all the years I have worked. So I guess, my boredom also stemmed from feeling dissatisfied. And spiritually speaking...I need to go back to Lingkod,hahay!
I need to take action, take back my zeal for life...hehehehe!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
WAAAAHHHHHH!
I am so jealous...my officemates just arrived yesterday from their trip to Hongkong...waaaahhh...I wanna go. They had so much fun despite what happened. They were able to go to places they wanted to go despite the limited budget and inability to speak or understand any Chinese dialect. All they did was careful planning, loads of research and able to get a promo fare....Waaaahhh...they even went to Macau....hahay!They have plenty of nice pics...huhuhuhu....la lang pasalubong...aaaaahhh :(
Hehehehe!they did bring souvenirs but only for a selected few...and I'm one of 'em.Yehey!
Hehehehe!they did bring souvenirs but only for a selected few...and I'm one of 'em.Yehey!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
My Thanks II
Having time in my hands and having read my previous blogs, I came across an entry titled "My Thanks". So this is a part two of it.
At that time I was emotionally,mentally and spiritually low. I was really depressed and stressed out then. Now, I am in an ambivalent mood. Kinda not really depressed but in a sorta reflective mood. So maybe these thank yous are borne not out of being in a highly emotional state but rather out of reflection and realizations.
Again, I wanna say thank you to all my teachers and lecturers in preschool, elementary and high school and also university. I say thank you to all the speakers in all the trainings and seminars I have attended and all the reviews I have taken. You may not know it but in one way or another you have helped mold me into what I am today. Not only for adding information to my store of knowledge but also for teaching me through actions and not just words what it is to be a child, a member of society and a part of the workforce.
I wanna say thank you to all the people that has passed through my life from my friends in the different neighborhood that we have lived in, to the kids I have met while vacationing, to my former wavemates,teammates and officemates to my current officemates and friends.Thank you all, though you may have passed in a way that may seem insignificant, you guys have in a way made my childhood fun, the trainings enjoyable and the work bearable. You have helped me become a bit more sociable and interactive with different people. Thank ya'll.
Of course there are people that I wanna specifically mention.
First off, to my parents for giving me the courage to explore. Thank you for letting me go to a school far away from home. Thank you for continually supporting me financially and emotionally. Thank you for your patience especially during the times that I was a bum and moving from one job to another. I'm sorry for my hardheadedness and stubbornness. Thank you for allowing me travel and spend time with my friends. Thank you for allowing me to satisfy my curiosities in life and for guiding me in a way that did not hinder my growth. I may have made loads of mistakes and at times disappointed you yet you were there guiding, guarding and supporting me.
To my siblings, thank you for being there for me. Thank you for teaching me to be a good Ate and sibling. We may still rub each other the wrong way yet now that we are older we have reached a kind of understanding towards each other that is more caring, compassionate and mature. We have now learned to give each other space and time. We have now in a way supported each other not just financially and materialistically but more in our support in each other's decisions and plans. We have now learned to consult each other and not just with regards to trivial things but more about our lives and situations. To my sister, Curlot, thank you for your patience and at times acting more like the big sister,hehehehe! Thank you for helping me pick my clothes. Thank you for your patience with me especially at times when I am short on patience. Thank you for sharing your stuff with me and standing up for me. To my Kuya, thank you for the advises (hehehehe!naa diay?). Thank you for all the gadgets you've given me, us your siblings. Thank you for the support. To my younger brother, Meowth, thank you for being my driver, hehehehe! Thank you for supporting my decisions and understanding the choices I've made. Thank you for the patience in teaching us how to drive.
To Eduardo, at this point in our lives, I wanna say thank you. Thank you for continually pushing me and believing in me. Thank you for all the patience and care. Thank you for always supporting me and being there for me. Thank you for putting up with my anti-social behaviour, my temper and my uncommunicativeness (is there such a word?hehehehe). Thank you for pushing and pulling me out of my shell despite and inspite of my stubbornness to stay in it. Thank you for always bringing e along in all your ideas and outings. With you I was able to travel without the hassle for planning. With you and Janice I was able to try new things like working in a call center, learning to pose for pics and be more girly.
To Janice, we may not have been close in high school but I felt that the time I spent with you and Eduardo while in Manila brought me closer to you. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for "dolling" me up. Though I complain, am really flattered and honored that you take your time to help me choose my clothes and put make up on me. You have in a way influenced me in how I dress and have sorta jump started my interest in putting make up and being more girly hehehehe. You have also taught me that good accessories can change a dress (well you and Eduardo). Thanks much.
To Mae Anne, thank you for keeping in touch. Thank you for showing your support while I was working in the call center and now while I'm still working on finding a job overseas. Thank you for continually encouraging me.
To Berna, you will always be my friend. You have always been there for me in college with all the ups and downs.
To my Auntie-cousin, Te Lai, thank you for being my sound board. Thank you for listening to my complaints and fancies. Thank you for putting up with my English, hehehehe!Thank you for being my Ate.
To Erica, you will always be the first person who befriended me. The first person who put up with me. Thank you for taking me along on your church activities and for accepting me. Sorry if I haven't really kept in touch.
To Jason, thanks for being a friend and staying as such even after college. Thanks for letting me borrow your books and stuff. Thanks for taking time to meet up with me whenever I am in Manila. Thank you for your opinions which are a bit different than the others, hehehe.
To June, I will always remember you to be my connection to Butuan while I was in Manila studying for college. You have helped me not give up on certain things. You have such an awesome fighting spirit, hehehehe. The views and opinions you have shared helped me think and analyze my thoughts and ideas more closely.
To my current officemates, thank you for accepting me...my abrupt moods, my blunt opinions and sometimes my noisiness. Thank you for letting me be. Thanks Mhix for putting up with my strong opinions and idiosyncrasies,hehehehe.
I thank you God, for always giving me people that helps me become a better person.
At that time I was emotionally,mentally and spiritually low. I was really depressed and stressed out then. Now, I am in an ambivalent mood. Kinda not really depressed but in a sorta reflective mood. So maybe these thank yous are borne not out of being in a highly emotional state but rather out of reflection and realizations.
Again, I wanna say thank you to all my teachers and lecturers in preschool, elementary and high school and also university. I say thank you to all the speakers in all the trainings and seminars I have attended and all the reviews I have taken. You may not know it but in one way or another you have helped mold me into what I am today. Not only for adding information to my store of knowledge but also for teaching me through actions and not just words what it is to be a child, a member of society and a part of the workforce.
I wanna say thank you to all the people that has passed through my life from my friends in the different neighborhood that we have lived in, to the kids I have met while vacationing, to my former wavemates,teammates and officemates to my current officemates and friends.Thank you all, though you may have passed in a way that may seem insignificant, you guys have in a way made my childhood fun, the trainings enjoyable and the work bearable. You have helped me become a bit more sociable and interactive with different people. Thank ya'll.
Of course there are people that I wanna specifically mention.
First off, to my parents for giving me the courage to explore. Thank you for letting me go to a school far away from home. Thank you for continually supporting me financially and emotionally. Thank you for your patience especially during the times that I was a bum and moving from one job to another. I'm sorry for my hardheadedness and stubbornness. Thank you for allowing me travel and spend time with my friends. Thank you for allowing me to satisfy my curiosities in life and for guiding me in a way that did not hinder my growth. I may have made loads of mistakes and at times disappointed you yet you were there guiding, guarding and supporting me.
To my siblings, thank you for being there for me. Thank you for teaching me to be a good Ate and sibling. We may still rub each other the wrong way yet now that we are older we have reached a kind of understanding towards each other that is more caring, compassionate and mature. We have now learned to give each other space and time. We have now in a way supported each other not just financially and materialistically but more in our support in each other's decisions and plans. We have now learned to consult each other and not just with regards to trivial things but more about our lives and situations. To my sister, Curlot, thank you for your patience and at times acting more like the big sister,hehehehe! Thank you for helping me pick my clothes. Thank you for your patience with me especially at times when I am short on patience. Thank you for sharing your stuff with me and standing up for me. To my Kuya, thank you for the advises (hehehehe!naa diay?). Thank you for all the gadgets you've given me, us your siblings. Thank you for the support. To my younger brother, Meowth, thank you for being my driver, hehehehe! Thank you for supporting my decisions and understanding the choices I've made. Thank you for the patience in teaching us how to drive.
To Eduardo, at this point in our lives, I wanna say thank you. Thank you for continually pushing me and believing in me. Thank you for all the patience and care. Thank you for always supporting me and being there for me. Thank you for putting up with my anti-social behaviour, my temper and my uncommunicativeness (is there such a word?hehehehe). Thank you for pushing and pulling me out of my shell despite and inspite of my stubbornness to stay in it. Thank you for always bringing e along in all your ideas and outings. With you I was able to travel without the hassle for planning. With you and Janice I was able to try new things like working in a call center, learning to pose for pics and be more girly.
To Janice, we may not have been close in high school but I felt that the time I spent with you and Eduardo while in Manila brought me closer to you. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for "dolling" me up. Though I complain, am really flattered and honored that you take your time to help me choose my clothes and put make up on me. You have in a way influenced me in how I dress and have sorta jump started my interest in putting make up and being more girly hehehehe. You have also taught me that good accessories can change a dress (well you and Eduardo). Thanks much.
To Mae Anne, thank you for keeping in touch. Thank you for showing your support while I was working in the call center and now while I'm still working on finding a job overseas. Thank you for continually encouraging me.
To Berna, you will always be my friend. You have always been there for me in college with all the ups and downs.
To my Auntie-cousin, Te Lai, thank you for being my sound board. Thank you for listening to my complaints and fancies. Thank you for putting up with my English, hehehehe!Thank you for being my Ate.
To Erica, you will always be the first person who befriended me. The first person who put up with me. Thank you for taking me along on your church activities and for accepting me. Sorry if I haven't really kept in touch.
To Jason, thanks for being a friend and staying as such even after college. Thanks for letting me borrow your books and stuff. Thanks for taking time to meet up with me whenever I am in Manila. Thank you for your opinions which are a bit different than the others, hehehe.
To June, I will always remember you to be my connection to Butuan while I was in Manila studying for college. You have helped me not give up on certain things. You have such an awesome fighting spirit, hehehehe. The views and opinions you have shared helped me think and analyze my thoughts and ideas more closely.
To my current officemates, thank you for accepting me...my abrupt moods, my blunt opinions and sometimes my noisiness. Thank you for letting me be. Thanks Mhix for putting up with my strong opinions and idiosyncrasies,hehehehe.
I thank you God, for always giving me people that helps me become a better person.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I wanna...
I know I already made a bucket list but those are the things I wanna do before I die. There are certain things that I wanna do...like NOW.
For one thing, I've been to Manila several times and stayed there for quite some time but I have yet to go and enjoy Enchanted Kingdom....grrrr...I'm really not happy about that. AAARRRGGGHHH! Next, I want my passport stamped and not just not valid for travel to Iraq before I turn thirty. I wanna go to either China, Japan or Korea, hehehehehe! I also wanna have my own camera that I can use for my own. Apparently, I also wanna go to Disneyland and it doesn't matter where as long as I get a photo with Mickey Mouse and Stitch. I also wanna go to the Ocean Park hehehehe!And I wanna experience another adrenaline rush adventure, water rafting or something.
AAAAHHHH!So many I wants yet don't have the capacity to do them all with the time frame I gave myself.
For one thing, I've been to Manila several times and stayed there for quite some time but I have yet to go and enjoy Enchanted Kingdom....grrrr...I'm really not happy about that. AAARRRGGGHHH! Next, I want my passport stamped and not just not valid for travel to Iraq before I turn thirty. I wanna go to either China, Japan or Korea, hehehehehe! I also wanna have my own camera that I can use for my own. Apparently, I also wanna go to Disneyland and it doesn't matter where as long as I get a photo with Mickey Mouse and Stitch. I also wanna go to the Ocean Park hehehehe!And I wanna experience another adrenaline rush adventure, water rafting or something.
AAAAHHHH!So many I wants yet don't have the capacity to do them all with the time frame I gave myself.
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