Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I Believe V
It is so much easier to just give up and go with the flow.
It is so much easier to just let things be and not rock the boat.
But it is so much harder find one's self when it is already lost
in the current with everybody.
It is so much harder to reach up when one is already comfortable lying down.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
I Believe IV
I believe that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
It's the same as seeing a cup; is it half full or half empty? The same as looking at life;
half full - looking at life with happiness and joy. Going thru everything with hope and love.
half empty - looking at life always negatively, thinking tha you can never do right.
It's the same as seeing a cup; is it half full or half empty? The same as looking at life;
half full - looking at life with happiness and joy. Going thru everything with hope and love.
half empty - looking at life always negatively, thinking tha you can never do right.
Monday, March 28, 2011
I Believe III
I believe that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
Attitude is something developed. It comes from the environment, people and circumstances that influenced you to be who you are. Attitude is one of the by-products of experience and maturity. Attitude reflects the kind of person you are, thus it should be something that you can control. It needs to be controlled cause not everybody sees you the way your loved ones see you. Control it so as not to spiral into a destructive mode.
Attitude is something developed. It comes from the environment, people and circumstances that influenced you to be who you are. Attitude is one of the by-products of experience and maturity. Attitude reflects the kind of person you are, thus it should be something that you can control. It needs to be controlled cause not everybody sees you the way your loved ones see you. Control it so as not to spiral into a destructive mode.
Friday, March 25, 2011
I Believe II
I Believe that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
It's kind of frustrating to become who I want to be. But who/what do I really wanna be? It seems that as a year pass my goal for myself also seemed to have gone higher. It's because I believe that as I have become older I should've become better than who I was last year. So I can never be who I want to be. :)
It's kind of frustrating to become who I want to be. But who/what do I really wanna be? It seems that as a year pass my goal for myself also seemed to have gone higher. It's because I believe that as I have become older I should've become better than who I was last year. So I can never be who I want to be. :)
Thursday, January 20, 2011
I am so Pissed!Confused and Agitated!
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!I am so pissed...you know why?Cause yesterday I was so stressed with my work and all that and out of the blue you texted me. Somehow...and I don't know why , your message kinda made my mood seem a bit okay. I saw your message and it kinda made me smile...maybe cause in a way you've helped me forget all the stressful things. Yet, you do something so weird it left me so freaking confused. Your answers are confusing and not encouraging. It has made me feel agitated and questioning which confuses me more. What's up?What's wrong?What is happening?I am so confused and agitated...and now I am so,so angry!HA!Can I cry?Should I cry?Do I have the right to cry?Why would I even cry?OMG!(deep breaths,deep breaths..calm down). Why am I feeling this way anyway?WHAT IS HAPPENING!OH MY GOD!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Anniv Fun!
We have just finished the 10th anniversary of the institution I am currently working in, Butuan Child Care Therapy Center. After all the late night practices and last minute hassles we finally did it. And have done it with flying rainbow colors!Hehehe!
It was so much fun...granted I was not that eager to join in the festivities but one can't help but become part of the preparation.
Firstly cause I can't just watch my co-workers struggling and stressing for the event all on their own. I wasn't excited to join mainly due to the fact that I was still feeling sore for the change in our status from regular employees to consultants. From a regular pay to a no client no pay status. I was really disappointed and disillusioned especially as they (the administration) keep saying that "we are a family" ( bullshit!). But, like I said, I can't help it. I like my co-workers and I can't just sit around knowing that there is something I can do to help them. I also felt sorry for the center's administrator (who is not part of the administration that I was refering to). He was already stressing with the logistics, reservations for venues and hotels and invitations, to making of videos and memorabilia. Added to that the growing gap in his relationship with one of the my co-workers that he was closest to. So, yeah, I kinda felt like I really need to help.
Secondly, there was plenty of food...aaaaaaahhhhhh!Free food. No matter if it was home cooked or fast food, it was still free. FOOOOOOOOODDDDD!
Third, cause it was a great opportunity to bond with my officemates. I mean, yeah we worked in the same center but we barely spend time together. We can no longer eat lunch at the same time since we, the therapists, finishes our last kid at past 12 noon and the teachers usually eat lunch before 12 noon. So, it was a time to catch up with everybody and with what's happening and to discuss our kids. It was most especially fun during practice. The teasing as to who has left feet, the ones that have a hard time dancing sexy and sultry,lol!FUN!
Fourth, it was fun to discuss clothes,hehehe!What to wear for the costume party. I wore anime/schoolgirl outfit,hehehe!What hairstyle and make up to use. And of course everybody was excited to wear long gowns for the gala night. Where to rent,what to rent...the rush and the excitement in finding the perfect gown. Of course, I rented one for the opening number and red carpet, changed into a gown I borrowed from a friend (thanks Jang!) for the awarding and pictorial and another gown courtesy of an officemate for after the contest. It was fun and I felt like a celebrity, especially with the flashing of the cameras.
It was fun and cool and exciting. I'll remember this event as one of the most fun I have in BCCTC.
It was so much fun...granted I was not that eager to join in the festivities but one can't help but become part of the preparation.
Firstly cause I can't just watch my co-workers struggling and stressing for the event all on their own. I wasn't excited to join mainly due to the fact that I was still feeling sore for the change in our status from regular employees to consultants. From a regular pay to a no client no pay status. I was really disappointed and disillusioned especially as they (the administration) keep saying that "we are a family" ( bullshit!). But, like I said, I can't help it. I like my co-workers and I can't just sit around knowing that there is something I can do to help them. I also felt sorry for the center's administrator (who is not part of the administration that I was refering to). He was already stressing with the logistics, reservations for venues and hotels and invitations, to making of videos and memorabilia. Added to that the growing gap in his relationship with one of the my co-workers that he was closest to. So, yeah, I kinda felt like I really need to help.
Secondly, there was plenty of food...aaaaaaahhhhhh!Free food. No matter if it was home cooked or fast food, it was still free. FOOOOOOOOODDDDD!
Third, cause it was a great opportunity to bond with my officemates. I mean, yeah we worked in the same center but we barely spend time together. We can no longer eat lunch at the same time since we, the therapists, finishes our last kid at past 12 noon and the teachers usually eat lunch before 12 noon. So, it was a time to catch up with everybody and with what's happening and to discuss our kids. It was most especially fun during practice. The teasing as to who has left feet, the ones that have a hard time dancing sexy and sultry,lol!FUN!
Fourth, it was fun to discuss clothes,hehehe!What to wear for the costume party. I wore anime/schoolgirl outfit,hehehe!What hairstyle and make up to use. And of course everybody was excited to wear long gowns for the gala night. Where to rent,what to rent...the rush and the excitement in finding the perfect gown. Of course, I rented one for the opening number and red carpet, changed into a gown I borrowed from a friend (thanks Jang!) for the awarding and pictorial and another gown courtesy of an officemate for after the contest. It was fun and I felt like a celebrity, especially with the flashing of the cameras.
It was fun and cool and exciting. I'll remember this event as one of the most fun I have in BCCTC.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
What is this?
What is this I'm feeling...I just can't explain...
Hahay...my emotions though not really on a roller coaster sort of feeling..I don't understand. I vacillate between wanting to stay with my family and having my own place.
I love my family...I like the feeling of knowing that when I get home my parents are there. I mean, we may not talk a lot and have their own stuff to do even at home..but still the feeling that they are there, it's nice. It's also nice to know that I know that my siblings will be home for breaks and holidays. It's a plus that I don't have to pay for and cook my food,somebody does my laundry,cleans the house and does things around the house (just goes to show how lazy I have become,lol).I can also easily just talk to my Nanay. On the downside...my Tatay keeps asking where I am and what time I'll be home if I'm out beyond the usual time (ggrrrrrr...)I need to tell them if I'm going out with my friends. I also need to inform them ahead of time if I plan to go out of town...I need to tell my Nanay and Tatay individually...hahay!They also keep telling me to clean my room ( I mean my room's clean enough for me! and organized enough!)Hahay...The down side of being the only child at home, at least no competition on the use of the computer and tv..lol.Though when my younger siblings come home...I become their financial sponsor,huhuhu...waz na dada Ate (",
I am also wanting to have my own place. A place where I can just sit down,laze around and eat whenever and wherever I like. I don't have to inform anybody where I am going and what time I'll be home. Nobody to tell me that I'm eating junk food. Nobody to wake me up early in the morning (though I might get late if it's a work day) I wanna have the freedom to bring my friends to my place and not worry about my Tatay arriving home in a "bad mood". My friends can stay for as long as they like. I can buy my own stuff and arrange my furniture the way I want. Somewhere that I can be independent..though I doubt it since I tend to depend if not on my family, on my friends...Love you all guys.
lol (",
Hahay...my emotions though not really on a roller coaster sort of feeling..I don't understand. I vacillate between wanting to stay with my family and having my own place.
I love my family...I like the feeling of knowing that when I get home my parents are there. I mean, we may not talk a lot and have their own stuff to do even at home..but still the feeling that they are there, it's nice. It's also nice to know that I know that my siblings will be home for breaks and holidays. It's a plus that I don't have to pay for and cook my food,somebody does my laundry,cleans the house and does things around the house (just goes to show how lazy I have become,lol).I can also easily just talk to my Nanay. On the downside...my Tatay keeps asking where I am and what time I'll be home if I'm out beyond the usual time (ggrrrrrr...)I need to tell them if I'm going out with my friends. I also need to inform them ahead of time if I plan to go out of town...I need to tell my Nanay and Tatay individually...hahay!They also keep telling me to clean my room ( I mean my room's clean enough for me! and organized enough!)Hahay...The down side of being the only child at home, at least no competition on the use of the computer and tv..lol.Though when my younger siblings come home...I become their financial sponsor,huhuhu...waz na dada Ate (",
I am also wanting to have my own place. A place where I can just sit down,laze around and eat whenever and wherever I like. I don't have to inform anybody where I am going and what time I'll be home. Nobody to tell me that I'm eating junk food. Nobody to wake me up early in the morning (though I might get late if it's a work day) I wanna have the freedom to bring my friends to my place and not worry about my Tatay arriving home in a "bad mood". My friends can stay for as long as they like. I can buy my own stuff and arrange my furniture the way I want. Somewhere that I can be independent..though I doubt it since I tend to depend if not on my family, on my friends...Love you all guys.
lol (",
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