What if!

What if I die would people mourn for me?
Would they go to my eulogy and remember what's nice about me?
The good I have done and the love and care I've given...
Would there be even people attending my wake.

Or maybe they'll laugh at my demise...
Grateful for the fact that I am gone...
The person that questions almost everything...
The person who does not seem to care.

What if I get terminally ill...
Would people visit me in my hospital bed?
Would they take time to spend with me?
Reminiscing the past and boosting my faith...

Or they'll just say "It's karma"...
They'll probably think I deserved it,
For all the headaches and heartaches I've caused...
Who knows they'll visit just to see me suffer.

What if I lost someone I love...
And at the same time lost my job, or house
Will there be people there to stand by me?
Will they'll be there to support me?

Or will they just say...
I had it coming...
Am such an abrasive person,
Demanding and hard.

If I get sick...really sick,will they take care of me?
Will they still hug me, when I smell like shit?
Will they feed me, even if I vomit it out?

Or they feel disgust...turn up their noses
At the sight and smell of me...
All thin and drab and smelly...
Would somebody..please be there for me?

Would I still have friends and families
If those things happen to me?
Would I still have somebody when I am old...
No matter...I'll keep loving even if no one knows


ANNA